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a3amriddle's Diaryland Diary

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[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
back
puffles says:
'drags you back under the blanket and lays gently on top of you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Curls up to you and closes her eyes*
puffles says:
'gently bites your chin then your lower lip kissing you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses back*
so what else is new
puffles says:
I discovered I like bowling
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
so you may have to do that with me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I hate bowling
puffles says:
'frowns"
I'm not very good at it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I do
puffles says:
oh well that's ok...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
me neither, i just dont see the fun in it I suppose
puffles says:
well it depends on who you're playing with for me... it's not fun unless it's someone I can bullshit with
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
'wraps his arm around you and pets you from waist to shoulders over the skin of your back"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*purrs a lil*
puffles says:
'kisses then bites gently into your vibrating neck"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*growls and wraps her arms around you*
puffles says:
'growls back and presses his mouth against yours hard nails gently dragging your skin"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*smiles a lil and kisses you back(
puffles says:
are you looking forward to seeing me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
'smiles and rubs his face gently up your neck"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*pats your cheek*
puffles says:
you make me very happy... and hearing your voice again will make me happier still
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats good
puffles says:
do I make you happy?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
good
'lays his head against your chest and presses lightly against you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses the top of your head*
puffles says:
you're amazing...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
you keep telling me that
puffles says:
don't you believe me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I believe you believe that
not that thats a bad thin
g
puffles says:
... then you will have to offer me the chance to show you how amazing you are
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
can't imagine you'd mind that?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
prolly not
cant imagine how youd go about it
puffles says:
well you think very highly of me
yet my ultimate goal is your happiness.... eventually it has to register in your head eh?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sure
puffles says:
...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what
puffles says:
when you say "sure" I generally sense sarcasm
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
didnt mean it that way
puffles says:
'kisses up your jaw and runs his fingers down your body slowly"
well you think I'm great...
and I want nothing more in the world but to hold, kiss, touch, make love to, and in general be around you....
says something doesn't it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
so either A) you're great too, or B) I'm stupid
I don't like the idea that you think I'm stupid
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont
puffles says:
then we'll stick to what I believe is all that matters right?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
I believe you're amazing you believe I'm great... so 'shrug'
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
alright
I dont understand but if you believe that then I wont argue you out of it,seems silly
puffles says:
I can't stand the idea that you don't believe I'm telling you the truth... not the truth as I see it but the truth
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sorry
puffles says:
it's not your fault... I'm the one who's cursed with the honesty complex
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'smiles and buries his face in your neck"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*hugs*
puffles says:
'hums softly and lays his head back against you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*runs a hand through your hair*
puffles says:
I really wish you were here... you could deal with the sore spots I can't...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
indeed
puffles says:
you would want to take care of me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
'smiles into your shoulder"
you and I really are going to have an amazing life together aren't you?
we"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I hope so
puffles says:
do you doubt?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no
puffles says:
then don't be silly...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
I know it will make you edgy but I have to say what came to mind earlier...
as a bit of proof
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
when you spoke of taking the kids to the movie the only thought that went through my head was how much happiness I felt from you... and what an amazing mother you will be
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
cute
*youre cute
puffles says:
no, just honest
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
still cute
puffles says:
I hope I get to see you made into that amazing mother...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
me too
puffles says:
it would make me happy... as I know you would be
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
of course
puffles says:
'smiles and kisses over your jaw" as long as you want me I'm not going anywhere
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good
puffles says:
so do me a favor, and keep wanting me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
cuz I've never met anyone like you... and I never want this to end
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
me neither
puffles says:
'smiles and sighs happily into your skin"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses your forehead*
puffles says:
you should rest baby
'pets your hair running his fingers through it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
Im fine
puffles says:
I am certain you are my darling
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont want to go to sleep right now
puffles says:
ok baby
'pets up and down your back gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*hugs*
puffles says:
thank you baby
thank you so much
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
for?
puffles says:
loving me, being with me ... accepting me, giving me something to hope for.. so many other things as well
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
welcome
puffles says:
'strokes your cheek tenderly"
I'll never get over the recuring tactic of using people as weapons in this show lol
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what show
puffles says:
this Hercules show
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
oh right
puffles says:
'kisses you gently" I meant it... I never want this to end
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I know
puffles says:
'nuzzles you gently"
and it's only going to get better
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
you don't agree?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
im sure itwill
puffles says:
'smiles and nestles hsi head against your chest"
want to know an embarassing secret about me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sure
puffles says:
I was actually a fan of Sabrina the Teenage Witch until I wa slike 13
still am to some respect
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I loved that show
and clarrisa explains it all
puffles says:
who what? huh
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
another show it was on nickelodeon
puffles says:
oh... see I never watched enough tv to get cable or satelitte lol
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
there's also a few soap operas I rather liked
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I used to watch days of our lives and passions
puffles says:
I found passions amusingly stupid
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
indeed
puffles says:
and I watched days of our lives till they first reimaged then killed my favorite character
after allegedly killing him 6 times
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
both of those got carried away
puffles says:
and I still sor tof like General Hospital... only for the mafia aspect
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
never watched it
puffles says:
and a slame as it is to someone not farmiliar with the authenticity of the show... I liked Dark Shadows
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good show
puffles says:
VERY old show...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ever see beauty and the beast on sci fi
puffles says:
nope never cared for the story itself
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
though tales from the crypt was prolly one of my favorites as a kid
puffles says:
which is ironic since nowadays you'd think I would have lol
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
haha
puffles says:
I also used to be a fan of the Conan animated series
when I was VERY little
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
never got into that
puffles says:
very few people even remember its existence lol
and my dad got me into the X-files...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I love that show,my mom wasa huge fan back in the day
puffles says:
'nips your lip gently"
oh... they finally released that Spartacus Blood and Sand first season... that was really good o.o
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont think ive seen that
puffles says:
except that they spent WAY too much special effects trying to make the blood look epic
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'smiles and rolls onto his back dragging you on top of him and stroking your hair gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*curls up ontop of you*
puffles says:
'drags his fingers up your leg" I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*giggles a lil and swats at your hand*
I love you
puffles says:
'presses his face into your neck" you're beautiful... and sweet
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*runs a hand through your hair*
puffles says:
'smiles and turns his face into your arm kissing it"
so what did I do to get an amazing woman like you?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*shrugs*
puffles says:
can I keep you? 'kisses your arm more"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
'smiles and bites your wrist very gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*curls up*
puffles says:
you ok?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
alright
I get to talk to you tommorow night?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
yay
that makes me, so happy.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good
puffles says:
'lays back and just pets you gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*lays her head on your chest*
puffles says:
'pets you lovingly smiling"
what you doing over there gorgeous/
?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nothing much
puffles says:
''pokes your ribs veyr gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*pokes back*what
puffles says:
'pokes you again"
"grabs your wrists and smiles lifting your arms and draping them around his neck as he leans up to kiss you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*squeezes tightly*
puffles says:
I hope I do a good job of being sweet and affectionate
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
you do
sorry I'm not more of either
puffles says:
oh baby you're great
and I'm sure you will be when we're together right?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
that's all that matters, I can't blame you for not being on here, sometimes it seems kinda silly right?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
'shrugs' I'm just doing what I can to show you how much I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*hugs*
puffles says:
and I love you more than you'll ever really know
you've been SO good for me, and I hope I've been good for you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
you have
puffles says:
like I said before it only gets better from here, we love eachother too much for it not to
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
indeed
puffles says:
do you find it as interesting as I do how much we love eachother even despite never having met?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
doesn't make you nervous does it?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
a little
puffles says:
I'm sorry
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its ok
puffles says:
I promise I'm not gonna make you regret it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
so don't be nervous ok? 'nuzzles you gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'll try to do the same
puffles says:
honey... I've explained to you how bad some of the women I've been with have fucked me over right?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
I don't regret any of them
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
so I won't regret you, I won't change my mind, don't worry
I don't do changing my mind... any better than you do
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
so don't be nervous ok?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'll try
puffles says:
I know you're gonna be a little
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
prolly
puffles says:
and I don't blame you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
like I said... we love eachother enough that things look good for the future
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
you agree?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
good
'smiles and runs fingers through your hair"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*closes her eyes*
puffles says:
tired love?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
a bit
puffles says:
ok babe
when you get your phone back I'll send you the pictures for the next 2 tattoos I'm going to get done
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
though it'll be a couple months
they're both pretty extensive
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
cool
puffles says:
you don't have any objections to me having tattoos on my forearms do you?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
not at all
puffles says:
good
my brother drew a couple
going to get a skeletal rattlesnake done in grey and black on the inside of my right forearm. and a really freaky like Joker face blowing fire with a sign that says "playing with fire" on the back of one shoulder
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sounds cool
puffles says:
'leans up and kisses you gently"
I'm not too affectionate for you am I?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no
puffles says:
good
you know no matter how I think about it all I see is peaceful happy future with you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats good
puffles says:
hope your prospects are similar lol
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
they are
puffles says:
good... I'm glad I'm that good
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*nods*
puffles says:
'drapes his arms around your waist and kisses the inside of your arms"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*laughs a lil*
puffles says:
'smiles up at you and kisses up the inside of your arm"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Squirms*
puffles says:
'holds your waist against his and runs his tongue back down your arm"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*laughs and pulls her arms away and tuckes them across her chest*
puffles says:
'gives you a pouting look"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
that tickles
puffles says:
'rolls you onto your back laying lightly on top of you" would you prefer I did other things?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
perhaps
puffles says:
'smiles and nuzzles your cheek"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*turns to kiss you gently*
puffles says:
'returns the kiss running his tongue over your lips"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*nips at your tongue*
puffles says:
'growls and kisses you hard"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses you back,wrapping legs around your waist*
puffles says:
'runs his hands up your thighs and cups your ass and kisses you more"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*growls and slides her tongue across your bottom lip*
puffles says:
'smiles against your lips" I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I love you
puffles says:
I'm glad 'presses against you gently"
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*presses up against you and leans up to bite your shoulder*
puffles says:
'smiles and pulls at your hair running his other hand up and down your thigh"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*giggles and shivers a lil*
puffles says:
'clicks his teeth next to your ear then runs his tongue over the earlobe"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*growls and drags her nails down your back*
puffles says:
'takes your earlobe gently between his canines and drags them over it"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*presses up hard against you*
puffles says:
'growls and pushes you back down between him and the ground growling in your ear softly" tease.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*squeezes you gently with her legs* should I stop
puffles says:
'bites your earlobe a little harder" hell no... teasing is a demonstration that you want me... why would I want to avoid that?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*growls*thats what I thought
puffles says:
'runs his tongue over your earlobe roughly" What you thought huh?
well shit, I'm becoming predictible
only took...wel llit's not think about how long
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*runs her fingers slowly up the back of your shirt*yup
puffles says:
I have no objection to you being able to predict me
and you understand me better than anyone in a long time
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*smiles*
puffles says:
I want you to understand me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I try
puffles says:
and I try to help you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'tilts his head and bites into your neck hands groping up your thighs to your ass again"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*shivers and growls a bit*
puffles says:
'drags his teeth down your throat and bites again lower grinding his chest not too hard against yours and squeezing your ass"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*presses up against you tightly and drags her nails slowly down your bare back*
puffles says:
'growls and kisses you hard pressing his whole body down on you"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses back,grinding her hips slowly up against yours*
puffles says:
'pushe shis hands around your legs and digs his fingertips into the inside of your thighs running his tongue over your collarbone pressing it hard"
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*growls loudly and reaches up to grab a small handful of your hair,pulling gently*
puffles says:
'smiles and pulls his head against your hand turning his face into your wrist and biting down gently tongue pressed hard into your skin"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Shivers and pulls her arm away to kiss you deeply*
puffles says:
'returns the kiss fingers digging deeper into you one hand sliding up your chest"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*nips at your bottom lip before leaning back to trail kisses over to your jaw and down your neck*
puffles says:
'squeezes your chest gently and tightens his neck under your lips other hand squeezing your ass"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*purrs and bites down on the hallow of your neck*
puffles says:
'smiles and runs his palm over your chest pressing his hips into yours"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*grinds her hips against yours before biting down harder*
puffles says:
'growls throat vibrating under your teeth fingers digging into your thigh and squeezing your chest gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*bites down her way slowly across your shoulder growling*
puffles says:
'grabs your hair and pulls you off his neck kissing you hard and deeply"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*nips at your bottom lip returning the kiss*
puffles says:
somehow I get the feeling you and I are going to have a lot of fun in that respect
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I imagine so
puffles says:
'sgrowls a little pressing his forehead to yours" I can't wait to see what you imagine.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*smiles*
puffles says:
and by the way... I'm very happy to see you want me so much
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good
puffles says:
'smiles and nuzzles you roughly"
I can't wait to hear your voice again..
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sounds the same as before
puffles says:
and before it was one of the best parts of my day
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
aww
puffles says:
and it's part of my day I miss more than I can tell you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
cute
puffles says:
glad you think so
don't tell him I said so... but Jobie actually fought really wel ltoday
we were fighting without striking but he only lost by one point
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
cool
puffles says:
if we were using striking he wouldn't have got any but he damn sure tried hard
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
he tore my damn face up... I thought I had a lot of hand grip but that boy's ridiculous...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
goodness
be careful doll
puffles says:
I'll be fine I promise
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
you better
puffles says:
it helps me with my getting in shape
and you deserve the best I can give you.
I know you don't approve but I still want at least a little bit of a tan...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
if you want to
puffles says:
I want to try it, and we'll see how much trouble it is
and if you don't like it I'll stop...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
promise
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
that's the way I work, i don't much care about my appearance so if you don't like something I'll usually change it
see I don't care about my appearance at all and I'm still sexy, right?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
indeed
*kisses the tipof your nose*
puffles says:
'smiles and presses his forehead to yours"
you know.... I guess now that you know who I really am it seems kind of silly that you thought I was some cold blooded jerk huh?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
a bit
puffles says:
I want you to understand why....
I'm generally pretty openly a jerk because generally I just want to be left alone
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
I don't care for people much... when I do I make the first move when i want company.... and the idiots usually leave me alone if they know I'm likely to grind their face into a wall
I hope you never, ever have to see something like that
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
me too
puffles says:
because it's not a lie... I actually do shit like that
if I ge tpissed enough
and I'm in control now but it used to be I'd break a beer bottle over your face for a "your momma" joke
which was funny since I don't care for my mother all that much
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*pats your chest gently*
puffles says:
I just don't see any reason for anyone to know about the side of me you see on a general basis
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its ok doll
I'm kinda the same way
puffles says:
well I won't out you if you don't out me
and we can relish th elittle secrets 'smiles and kisses your nose"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sounds good
puffles says:
I kind of like the idea of there being a secret side to you they don't know about but I get to see every day
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I do too
puffles says:
'smiles and nuzzles you a little" course... my exterior self has changed a lot since I met you
rather since I started seriously talking to you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses your cheek*
puffles says:
but I'm ok with that... I can't afford to have people randomly taking a swing at me and shit anymore
I have a future... and while a lot of people wouldn't use this word a family.. in you to think about.
and for the first time that idea doesn't bother me at all
and I feel... like it's ok to just be a man and nothing else for the first time in my life...
sorry if you feel like that puts pressure on you... I hope it doesn't.. it's not meant to
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its ok
puffles says:
... shit I'm sorry
I have the worst habbit of spilling my guts ...
curse of honesty strikes again
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses your neck gently*its ok really fun
I am just not in the spilling my own guts mood right now
puffles says:
it's ok baby
'smiles and kisses you gently"
you should rest
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
wanna tell me what's wrong?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nothing
puffles says:
ok
'kisses you once, twice, and a third time"
I'm sorry for dumping all that on you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its fine really honey
puffles says:
I want you to go to bed honey...
'grabs your hand and kisses it gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I will when Im ready
you go on if you want too
puffles says:
honey there's no need to get standoffish...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
just saying
puffles says:
seriously you know I'd never try to force you to do anything
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I know that
puffles says:
unless agreed upon prior of course <.<
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
of course
puffles says:
I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I love you
puffles says:
you have my number right, and you'll get up with me with the new number tommorow?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
thought it will be the same
puffles says:
well I wouldn't count on that but it's possible
and it would be nice
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'continues kissing over your hand"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*smiles a lil*
puffles says:
have I done something wrong?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no
puffles says:
ok
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
why would you think you have?
puffles says:
cuz we went almost instantly from you and me rubbing against eachother to just "smiling a little"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sorry
puffles says:
it's perfectly fine love
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
I am rather moody again
puffles says:
wanna tell me why?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
just am
puffles says:
'takes your other hand and holds them together against his lips"
and that's perfectly ok... I'm more htan prepared for it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
everyone has their days
long as you're not mad at me I can deal with it ... if you're mad at me it has to get looked at cuz I don't like that at all
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm not mad at you
puffles says:
and want to avoid it as much a spossible
good
'kisses each of your knuckles"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*leans against*
puffles says:
'wraps his arms back around you and kisses your cheek gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
im sorry I'm a lil distracted today sugar
puffles says:
honey it's fine
just calm down
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I am calm
puffles says:
just promise you'll tell me if something is wrong and that's it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
why
puffles says:
because I feel like absolute shit any time I don't know and feel like I should have
and because I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what would be the use in upsetting you too
puffles says:
baby... please tell me
the use is because I love you... and anything part of your life and upsetting you is indirectly part of my life...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its nothing doll
puffles says:
damnit Ash...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm fine really
puffles says:
'growls'
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*pats*
puffles says:
...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what
puffles says:
I almost made it to bed without wanting to punch something
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm sorry
puffles says:
no..
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I am,see you only think I am upset and you are upset
puffles says:
I'm upset because you don't say things like "Why upse tyou too" without reason
and I'm gonna be more upset when you don't tell me
partly because I think or know you're upset, and moreso because you don't trust me enough as part of your life...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its nothing and either way I dont want to discuss it and its nothing you need to be concerned about
puffles says:
you really miss the fucking point... I DON"T GET A CHOICE whether to be concerned or not
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont be
puffles says:
I don't have a choice...
if I try not to be it'll only mak eme moreso...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*sighs*
puffles says:
that's what loving you means... I don't get to just turn my head...
I don't care about a whole lot of people...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
it is nothing outside the normal,everything is fine really sugar
puffles says:
lie to me all you like... just know that I don't nod my head out of believing it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
alright
I hate upsetting you
puffles says:
then you should have chosen the reasonable path...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
?
*pokes*
puffles says:
HAHA someone's a dipshit
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
?
someone always is
puffles says:
or I'm even more of a swindling genius than I thought...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what are you talking about
puffles says:
some idiot overlisted the price of a ship mod on that pirate game to 100 thousand doubloons ... I listed mine for 20... the idiots paid me 100 for them anyway without bothering to check
even though the average price was around 30
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
oh ok
puffles says:
silly little people
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
most are
puffles says:
you have no idea...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I have some
puffles says:
'kisses you gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*kisses back*
puffles says:
I'm sorry I got upset...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm sorry I upset you
puffles says:
you just have to understand how much I care about you....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I do
puffles says:
'sighs and strokes your hair" I love you so much...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I love you
dont be upset with me
puffles says:
oh baby it's not that I'm upset with you...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
then what
puffles says:
I've been able to sense something was wrong...
then you slipped up and hinted at it...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
Im fine really though
puffles says:
you better be...
even though that's not the point
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I am
what is the point then
puffles says:
you eve rheard the phraise about hitting a dog?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont think so
puffles says:
you can't hit him but so many times before he stops coming to your hand....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
the same is true with keeping things from me...
the more you do it the more suspicious I'm going to be of it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
why
puffles says:
because I don't understand the relevence of secrets
it's just another way that people make life harder than it has to be
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hmm ok
and what is it you think I am up to that would make you suspicous
puffles says:
it's not a matter of thinking you're up to something
doesn't matter what it is your keeping
it's relevent or it wouldn't bother you..
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its irrevelent,nothing new and nothing that can be done about,and what use is there is upsetting the both of us any further
puffles says:
because not knowing why you're upset upsets me more than "it" possibly could
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Sighs*
*leans against*
puffles says:
'pets your hair gently"
don't worry I'm not gonna stop loving you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I know
I dont worry about that at all
puffles says:
what do you worry about?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nothing
puffles says:
my brother put me on a Nickleback craze earlier...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm not a big fan of them
puffles says:
and I consequently remembered one of my old favorite songs
not a big fan of thei rnewer stuff...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what song
puffles says:
'chuckles' Figured you out
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
*curls up to*
puffles says:
you have to undestand that my hatred of humanity is progressive
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
so in high school I went through relationships quickly because I would quickly grow to hate everything about the person
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
hasn't happened for many years tho
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
as long as you dont grow to hate me
puffles says:
'grabs your hands and presses them to his chest" my heart beats for you darling... and I am no longer an overpowered boy bound on tearing everything from his way.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well good
puffles says:
I do not hate easily
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good
is it gonna bother you so much is theres things I dont ever tell you because theres plenty of things Ive never told anyone
puffles says:
depends on whether they become relevent
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
none of it is,wouldnt do any good to tell anyone
puffles says:
you don't know that
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and what good could it possibly do
puffles says:
I can't tell you that without already knowing what it is
but there's always good to be done
even if one must be evil to do it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hmm ok
puffles says:
there is alway sa right... and a wrong
and some times one must be wrong to be right
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
true
puffles says:
would you say that the things I've done in the past were wrong?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no
puffles says:
I would...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont know
puffles says:
but the fact of who I did it too makes it right at the same time
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
there was no way to accomplish the right without doing the wrong
brb baby
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'grabs you and rolls around with you a little"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*hugs tightly*
puffles says:
like I said... if it becomes relevent it will bother me... other than that I expect you to have secrets
there literally is no one else like me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
'kisses all ove ryour face gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I got another package yesterday
puffles says:
I love you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I love you
puffles says:
enough to keep me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
'hugs you close" I'm sorry I know it just feels like I'm prying....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*hugs back*its fine,I'm just no good at sharing these things
puffles says:
and that's ok... you got all the time in the world to work at it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
my problem has always been my problem
puffles says:
well your problems are my problems honey
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont like that
puffles says:
then get rid of me... that's how love works
if something upsets me you want to know, want to try to make it better no matter what right?
well guess what... I walk the same shoes
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but theres nothing to be done to make it better
and telling you and getting you upset to doesnt make me feeel better
puffles says:
there often isn't
you'd rather not tell me and have me more upset?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont want you upset at all
and I did tell you a minute ago I think you just missed it
puffles says:
well you know there's always a chance I won't get upset...
I must not have got it... cuz I just read up..
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I got another package today
puffles says:
ok see I'm actually not upset about that
you're actually going to be bothered more but I find it amusing
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
in so many words asked who Id miss more gabriel or my neice
I dont find it amusing in the least
puffles says:
'lifts your hand and kisses over your knuckles"
you would if you could see it from my perspective
because unlike you I see the strings of his little game
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hmmm ok
puffles says:
a simple game... that he's very bad at
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
doesnt make it anyless disturbing
puffles says:
seriously I don't even have to think.. to outmaneuver his theories
it should, think about it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*raises a brow*
puffles says:
he's got no chance of taking Gabriel...
and he damn well knows it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
Ive stoppd running to gabriel with every complaint and sending him there,so instead he threatens them
puffles says:
I'd question my chances of taking Gabriel out...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I know he couldnt either but it doesnt make me any less angry
puffles says:
it should, it means he's getting desperate
he's running out of angles ... which means he sees your regaining control and he's losing the only advantage he had
lets examine this ok?
just briefly
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*sighs*
puffles says:
he has NOTHING to gain
the only people on his side are the lawyers and they only want his money
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
all hes doing really is fueling the idea of revenge
puffles says:
you my darling have defied him... stood up to him...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
not very well
puffles says:
not only that but you've gained even more weight on your side
oh yes well
and I learned something from this little "message"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I just looked a bit crazy and helped his defense and damn near got my ass kicked out of court
puffles says:
'pets your hair gently"
silly girl that's not what I meant
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
Im being serious
puffles says:
I don't care,
do you realize how long you spent so afraid so drawn off and with him in control (from his point of view at least) not even showing up?
you didn't help his defense as much as you would have not showing up
therefore you accomplished something
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*shrugs*
alot of good it did me
puffles says:
and you scared him
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
good
puffles says:
'smiles and kisses you gently"
as I said I learned something
he is either very slow at getting information... or even stupider than I thought
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*shrugs*
puffles says:
and yeah, I could do plenty about it if I wanted
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
youd better not
if anything is done it will be my own doing
puffles says:
I have agreed to postpone his destruction...
your second statement remains to be seen
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Frowns*
puffles says:
'pets your hair gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I mean it
puffles says:
on this note honey, I don't care
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I do
puffles says:
well you're free to tell me to take a hike if it means more to you than I do
otherwise live with it...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm completely serious,I won't have you doing it for me
puffles says:
I won't do it for you silly one
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats not a button I'd press right now if I were you sugar,because I intend on doing it with you or there or not
puffles says:
'shakes his head"
I don't exterminate his kind for anyone...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
puffles says:
for honor... for the world...
if you want to walk away go ahead... it won't gain you anything because it won't stop me anymore than it'll stop you
and you don't intend anything... in order to intend something you have to know how to do it frist
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont think I havent spent a long time considering it
puffles says:
I promised you I would not do it unless it was necessary
I don't care if you have or not
consider WHATEVER you want
you're still just a little girl with a lot of anger and a gun... you're NOT a killer
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
and you're dead wrong.... there's a lot I can do... if I so choose
you don't know everything...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thanks for discounting and underestimating me that helps
nor do you
puffles says:
no fool.... you're underestimating you
I don't have to know everything.... as I've told you a thousand times
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
see I didnt want to have this conversation with you
puffles says:
then stop being a fucking idiot...
if revenge were the answer I wouldn't hav elost everything I ever loved a thousand fucking times
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*Sighs*
puffles says:
STUPID STUPID STUPID people and your emotions
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah thanks
you always know just how to make me feel better
puffles says:
I used to...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
calling me an idiot certaintly doesnt
puffles says:
I tell the truth... your "intent" is idiotic...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hmm ok
puffles says:
so what? every time he pushes your buttons you're gonna fall for it?
get yourself all riled up and all of a sudden nothing else is important...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
perhaps
puffles says:
and you wonder why you keep losing the game...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
*shrugs*
puffles says:
that's right... shrug...
pretend not to care... pretend it's irrelevent when it's the one thing that eats you more than any other, that he keeps winning
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and this is why I dont want to have this discussion with you
puffles says:
oh? you expect me to be pleased to come second to a vengeance complex that is only going to end with you dead?
because as you are... you stand NO chance
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no I dont expect you to be pleased
puffles says:
'nods" glad to see where your priorities lie
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sorry
puffles says:
stop lying...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and see what was the use in telling you any of that
puffles says:
that now I know that I might as well disappear...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont want you too
puffles says:
NO you'd rather make me sit around love you, build a life with you just for you to throw it all away
grow up...
it won't matter how it ends... you'll have thrown away EVERYTHING for something as worthless as his life...
everything including me...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I cant let this stand
puffles says:
IT STANDS NO MATTER WHAT
IT'S DONE
NOTHING you do changes ANYTHING
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont you think I know that
puffles says:
you've just got your head too far up your ass to see it
NO becaus eif you did you wouldn't say stupid things like "I can't let this stand"
this isn't a duel over some dishonor...
so yeah you stand there and tell me "I love you... but when the time comes I'll throw you away, even though I know it's pointless"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I'm sorry
puffles says:
no... you're a liar...
I only wish you were lying to me... so I could hate you for it
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah
puffles says:
so much for love...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah so much
puffles says:
and all that bullshit about wanting kids... wanting a future....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
doesnt mean I dont,but I wont have this hanging over me forever
puffles says:
it'll hang over you regardless you idiot
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so what if he doesnt get out,even if he doesnt come after me theres still other people other children
stop calling me an idiot damn it
puffles says:
STOP ACTING LIKE ONE

and there were others before you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I am aware of that
puffles says:
'laughs'
I am such a fool....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I should never have involved you in any of this
puffles says:
and there it is... the regret...
you really believe that huh? that everything we've had was wrong?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
no not at all
puffles says:
if you hadn't involved me this never would have happened
we never would have been
if it hadn't happened to you you never would have met me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
all I'm doing is upsetting you
puffles says:
you wouldn't be the woman that stirrs not only my interest but my heart and blood
it upsets me that you act like a child when you are not... that you refuse to understand ...
it hurts me that you lied to me about a future... children... love...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I didnt lie
puffles says:
all along knowing you planned to throw away all of it...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I dont plan to throw it away
puffles says:
do you know what hurts me the most?
that at this moment... you're as bad as he is...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but I am sorry you are right that its wrong to ask you to love me when I plan on this
puffles says:
then I'll tell you now tha tyou can walk away from me or not... I'm still going to stop you
and I can... and I will
because while it's wrong to you... it's right...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
then why ask you to stick around
puffles says:
that's your call Ashlen...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
dont call me that
puffles says:
oh? should I call you Bethesda ?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
?
puffles says:
well I don't know for certain... but according to my research that was your original name...
it doesn't matter what I call you...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hmm ok
puffles says:
what matters is who you are...
and as I've said before, you're not a killer... and you're smart enough to know better
there is no matter of honor here
he had none to begin with
and if there is a right owed of vengeance, it is to whoever was first... not you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well shes dead now
puffles says:
then there is no vengeance left...
then... the first... he had honor then and that was the point which he defiled hers and his
after that he cannot stain your honor... you are nothing less for what has happened but something more
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and I should just let it be right?
puffles says:
it has made you stronger, more powerful...
no
you should be smart about it
I do not object to your want for revege
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keeping him locked up doesnt satisfy me
puffles says:
nothing will satisfy you my love.
except to see him broken...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
his death will
puffles says:
no... you believe tha tnow but you have no knowledge for sure
having been there... I do
'pets your cheek gently"
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I wont have him out and walking freely either
puffles says:
you will have no choice if you want to kill him
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I meant if I dont
puffles says:
are you an Eagles fan?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes
puffles says:
"Freedom, oh freedom is just some people talking your prison is walking through this world all alone"
no one walks freely my love
so.... I will offer you a deal...
since as I said before... you don't have a choice
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I do
puffles says:
no you don't...
because to be honest... I'll kill you before I let you kill him
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
oh thanks
puffles says:
if you're going to do it poorly anyway
if it's any consolation I will kill myself and end my existence completely immediately after...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
who says I am
puffles says:
the fact that you don't know how to do it right
and have no method by which to learn
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats not a colsidation,how could it be,youd kill me rather than let me kill him and then youd kill yourself,thats not comforting,only a reason to put space between us
puffles says:
think how long I've existed... how much I know and how much I've endured... do you really think dying bothers me?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but youd really kill me?
puffles says:
if left no alternative...
I'd kill anyone...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
his life is worth more than mine?
puffles says:
not at all...
but life is fleeting .... and you have existed for over eight hundred years without disgracing what you are... without dishonor
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and you have no idea what means I have nor what I intend to find
well maybe its time to stop doing that,I feel a feeling I've spent every damn life running and I'm tired of it
puffles says:
no actually
as a matter of fact by all rights I should hate you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
go ahead
puffles says:
if pas tlives meant anything
yes... I will kill you before I watch you torture yourself to madness for revenge...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well might wanna get started on that then
puffles says:
I would prefer you listen to my terms...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I wont do anything on anyone elses terms
puffles says:
that's a great joke...
you live in a society that demands you live on their terms and you do
even I do...
even right now you plan to act on his terms
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
you know,honestly this is why I dont turn to you with these things
puffles says:
but this whole thing started because you did Ash...
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and look what good its done both of us
puffles says:
considering how much we talked about being in love earlier... I thought it had done a world of good
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
now youre just insulting me cause I dont see things the way you do
puffles says:
how we talked about never wanting it to end
no girl... I'm telling you you are living outside reality
and I'm not the only one
but fine... throw away our love, throw away our happiness, our hopes, our dreams... all for your anger and your so-called vengeance that won't come to fruition anyway
and maybe in the end you'll realize all you're doing is running
the very thing you seek to avoid
killing him would be running away
trying to run away from having to live with the past
Trying being the operative word
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
I live with this every god damn day
puffles says:
and I live with much worse...
you live with fear and helplessness... by no means small burdens
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